My Life

Me, in April 2011

I am 23 years old ex model, poledancer and a showgirl, I was also a figureskater and I have always been a gymjunkie. I am from Finland and I live here now but there is a lot in my story, believe me.

I lived my life in Hämeenlinna until I was 19 years old and then I decided to move to Helsinki.  I worked as a gogo dancer, and a model with my own bussines number, I did lots of promotional work for different companies and I trained a lot. I found poledancing in January 2011 and it became a huge passion.

At this time two of my friends were thinking to go to Australia and I was planning to go with them. But I stayed in Finland, in my bad relationship, with my abjusive boyfriend. I was unhappy but I just couldnt leave, things what made me happy was poledancing 12 hours a week and gym each day of the week. Then something so bad happened that it woke me up and I realized that I really had to leave him now or I will just stay with him, unhappy, forever.
I left, finally. It was June 2011 and I moved back to Hämeenlinna and stayed with my mum. I contacted my friends in Australia and one of them told me that she works at this really nice club and there is poledancers and showgirls there and you get paid really well. So, guess what. I booked a one way ticket and worked my ass of that summer and August 22nd my plane departed from Helsinki-Vantaa Airport. I arrived to Australia, Darwin on 24th of August in a morning, after long long flights trough Frankfurt and Singapore. That changed my live for good.

Sam, one beautiful morning in our bed.

My new life started I thought. Wild and free in Australia. The first night I got my self a job as a gogo dancer from one of the clubs in town, it was'nt the one my friend was talking about, we were planning to go there together when she comes back from Finland in couple weeks. Well, I started working at this club called HP every tuesday. The second time I was working, I was on stage and I saw this gorgeus security guard standing in front of me, his back was amazing and I was dying to see his face. And when I did I was sold. Next night he gave me his number, next week we hang out and after that we were together, all the time.

Me, in our Burleque show costume in November 2011

I started working at that other club, as a poledancer and a showgirl. I did ten shows a week sometimes, sometimes less, and on top of that four nights at the club from 9pm until 4am. It was amazing, so much fun, and I loved it. Day time I use to go to the gym with my boyfriend Sam, as he is a personal trainer. Couple weeks training with him and all that dancing made my body to change so quick. I started getting fitter and fitter and I was loving it.
In November Sam got into a bad car accident, the car got into a slideon wet road and got out of the road on to wet grass and hit 3 threes side ways. One of his friends came to the club where I worked and told me that sam was in an accident an he is going to be taken to the hospital. I was so scared, I didnt know how he is or is it serious, I was praying that he would be ok. When I finally got to see him after a long time of waiting he seemed ok, but he was connected into all these machines and I got told that his heart actually stopped, his ear was still bleeding a bit and doctors were checking his spine. They let Sam home that night after he told them he feels fine and wants to go home, I was stunned by the fact that they did let him go the same night his heart has stopped, that would never happen in Finland. Well later we found out that he actually got some fractures in his ribbs and there was something wrong with his shoulder, that shoulder is still causing pain and problems in his training.  Well we got over the accident, but it took a long time that sam was okay to train again.
We decided to go and travel, we came to Finland to see my family and friends on January 2012 and then we went to see Sams sister to Germany. On our trip we got engaged. It came time to jump into the plane and go back to Australia, we decided to move to Brisbane, east coast of Australia, there would be more modeling work, and more clubs to dance in.

My belly at 36 weeks

We got back to Australia in the end of February, and month later I noticed that I am late. I did the test and it was negative, couple days later I did it again. Positive. We knew already before the test came positive, we would keep the baby, there was no question about it. We were so happy. I have always been so little that at just 9 weeks pregnant me belly was bit bigger than normally. So I had to stop dancing, also Sam was really worried about all that bouncing at the pole.

When I was 24 weeks pregnant we moved to Finland. My belly was growing so fast and everything was going well. I had no morning sickness, nothing, I ate normal and healthy food but I was gaining a lot of weight. I had to even get tested for pregnancy diabetes but the test was negative. By the time just before I gave birth my waist was more than 110cm, and my height is just 155cm and my waist use to be around 60cm. I gained 25kg during my pregnancy.  Our beautiful son was born 27th of November, two weeks after we got married at the court house of Hämeenlinna.

Our son and Sam ready to go home from the hospital

My weight dropped so quick in a beginning. In a first week after giving birth I lost 10 kilos, now after 3 months from labour I still have about 8 kilos to go to what I was. I fighted hard to loose that 7 kilos after the first ten and I am not going to stop fighting. I have my motivations, firstly my husband is such a gorgeus young guy, he is a personal trainer and trains really hard so he deserves to have a hot and sexy wife. Second, we are having our wedding party on beginning of July. And third I really want my old body back, actually my goal is to get my body in even better shape it use to be. I want to compete in bikini fitness, I want to get back to modeling and dancing. I want to shine on stage again.

So this is going to be a blog about being a mummy, wife and getting back to shape again. Lots of diapers, love, learning, cooking, hard training and sweat.

Little Leo